After 6 years, Sarah and I have broken up. It still seems weird to say, and I still don't think I really feel it yet, but it is true. It happened last Monday, but I haven't been in much of a writing mood so I waited til now to write a blog about it.
This is the hardest thing I've ever done in my life. It was techincally me that broke up with her, but I think we both kinda sensed the same thing. Basically, we were just different in every aspect, so much so that it became glaringly obvious recently, at least to me, that we were not going to be able to be together forever and be happy with each other's decisions/lifestyles. Without getting into too many details, pretty much every major decision that we would discuss for the future, we had different ideas of what we wanted to do. It was a friendly and understanding break up, and we still live together and are definitely civil, but it still really hurts when I realize she is no longer my girlfriend. Just because I knew it had to happen does not make it any easier.
It's just really tough living with a girl you still have feelings for, and probably always will, and trying to act normal. We have fun and joke, but there's always the realization that things are just not the same. The toughest thing is that our phone calls no longer end in "I love you." It seems like there's something missing every time.
Looking back on our relationship, I do not regret one minute we spent together. She was an amazing girlfriend, and we had so many good times together. I grew as a person, and gained a lot of confidence from her. Some people may think I could have made more use of my college years, but even if I had known the whole time that we wouldn't last, I still would not have changed anything. I will never forget the last 6 years of my life...
Sorry that I'm going on all depressing like this, I just felt like I had to write something down. I'll leave it there for now.
Saturday, June 11, 2011
Sunday, March 20, 2011
Being sick is no fun :(
I've been sick with a stomach bug for the last couple of weeks. It has been truly terrible. The beginning was definitely the worst. Two Tuesdays ago, I left work early feeling sick to my stomach. I went home and just felt horrible overall. Fatigue, headache, very bad stomachache, all kinds of stuff. So I napped when I could all afternoon, stayed home the next day, and tried to go back on thursday (my birthday). I left early again and stayed home Friday.
I stared actually feeling much better over the weekend, but then I was an idiot. All week my diet had consisted solely of soup, crackers, bananas, and applesauce. I started feeling better, and started eating real food again, and took it waaayyyy too far. I was eating basically anything I could, but I think the downfall was the buffalo chicken wings I ate for supper one night. After that, my bug came back with a vengeance. I missed another couple days of work, and now I think I am finally getting over it. I went to the doctor's on Friday and he said he thought it was in the final stages and I was getting better. So hopefully I'll be 100% soon.
Moral of the story - Don't be an idiot when you're sick :)
I stared actually feeling much better over the weekend, but then I was an idiot. All week my diet had consisted solely of soup, crackers, bananas, and applesauce. I started feeling better, and started eating real food again, and took it waaayyyy too far. I was eating basically anything I could, but I think the downfall was the buffalo chicken wings I ate for supper one night. After that, my bug came back with a vengeance. I missed another couple days of work, and now I think I am finally getting over it. I went to the doctor's on Friday and he said he thought it was in the final stages and I was getting better. So hopefully I'll be 100% soon.
Moral of the story - Don't be an idiot when you're sick :)
Sunday, February 20, 2011
Book Review! - Shantaram
This one's for Tahly (Don't be harsh I don't know how to review books)
I actually finished this book (for the second time) a couple weeks ago and wanted to write about it since. I loved it so much, I read it once, read another small book, and then started this one again right away.
The novel is named Shantaram, and is based on real events from the author's life. Gregory David Roberts was sentenced to prison for armed robbery. During his time there, he was brutally beaten by guards pretty much constantly. Finally, he had enough and escaped over the wall in broad daylight. With the help of some friends, he fled to Bombay, India, which is where the novel begins.
This book tells the tale of Roberts' life in India as a runaway and the most wanted man from his home country, Australia. He forms many close bonds, gets in many dangerous situations, and even goes to jail again, experiencing significantly worse conditions than before. To be honest I don't really wanna recap the book, just tell how it made me feel.
Roberts writes this book in a way that makes it impossible not to feel connected to him and everyone else in the story. I didn't realize how I thought about some things until he put it into words, and he definitely showed me some better ways to look at some things. He incorporates so many universal truths in this book. It really gives you a different way to look at life, while truly caring about what happens to him and the people around him. I truly highly recommend this novel.
I actually finished this book (for the second time) a couple weeks ago and wanted to write about it since. I loved it so much, I read it once, read another small book, and then started this one again right away.
The novel is named Shantaram, and is based on real events from the author's life. Gregory David Roberts was sentenced to prison for armed robbery. During his time there, he was brutally beaten by guards pretty much constantly. Finally, he had enough and escaped over the wall in broad daylight. With the help of some friends, he fled to Bombay, India, which is where the novel begins.
This book tells the tale of Roberts' life in India as a runaway and the most wanted man from his home country, Australia. He forms many close bonds, gets in many dangerous situations, and even goes to jail again, experiencing significantly worse conditions than before. To be honest I don't really wanna recap the book, just tell how it made me feel.
Roberts writes this book in a way that makes it impossible not to feel connected to him and everyone else in the story. I didn't realize how I thought about some things until he put it into words, and he definitely showed me some better ways to look at some things. He incorporates so many universal truths in this book. It really gives you a different way to look at life, while truly caring about what happens to him and the people around him. I truly highly recommend this novel.
Friday, January 28, 2011
Je Parle Un Peu Francais!
I really hope I spelled that right, or else I just look like a douche. It means I Speak A Little French! That's right, I'm learning French with Sarah. She's gonna need to know it for the Peace Corps in Africa, so I figured this was a perfect opportunity to learn another language. I've been thinking about it for a little bit and even considered making it a new years thing, but it didn't seem as possible until a great situation arrived. I'm really pumped and hope I can learn to speak it fluently!
Hmm let's see what else is new. Don't know if I mentioned this before but I'm now in an office instead of a cubicle! Kinda by default rather than promotion. New sales people needed our cubes and my boss was moving offices so it just made sense to put me and Nikki (the intern) into his old office. It was pretty cool to move and I feel like a big shot even if I'm really not. ;) The best thing is I can listen to music at a low volume cuz I'm not out in the main area with all the other cubicles. Makes the day go much better.
Poker's going well. I've done well in a couple small tournaments, with 2 final tables and one cash at 50th/17,000 or so. all small amounts due to the small stakes, but enough to move me up in my challenge. I'm now playing at $.05-.10 and playing very well, IMO. Branching out into other games too, instead of just NLHE. I'm really loving 2-7 triple draw limit, and no-limit's not bad either, just haven't played as much. And, as usual, trying to get in as many mixed games as possible. All in all it's a lot of fun and I'm happy that I'm really enjoying poker again.
Other than that I'm just enjoying life and absolutely praying for no more snow. Ever. I know Mike's gonna say "just move out to San Diego bro," but I'm sorry i just can't do that. But I will try as hard as I can to convince the big boss to expand and build a nice office out there, and selflessly volunteer to help him set things up in sunny Cali. :)
Hmm let's see what else is new. Don't know if I mentioned this before but I'm now in an office instead of a cubicle! Kinda by default rather than promotion. New sales people needed our cubes and my boss was moving offices so it just made sense to put me and Nikki (the intern) into his old office. It was pretty cool to move and I feel like a big shot even if I'm really not. ;) The best thing is I can listen to music at a low volume cuz I'm not out in the main area with all the other cubicles. Makes the day go much better.
Poker's going well. I've done well in a couple small tournaments, with 2 final tables and one cash at 50th/17,000 or so. all small amounts due to the small stakes, but enough to move me up in my challenge. I'm now playing at $.05-.10 and playing very well, IMO. Branching out into other games too, instead of just NLHE. I'm really loving 2-7 triple draw limit, and no-limit's not bad either, just haven't played as much. And, as usual, trying to get in as many mixed games as possible. All in all it's a lot of fun and I'm happy that I'm really enjoying poker again.
Other than that I'm just enjoying life and absolutely praying for no more snow. Ever. I know Mike's gonna say "just move out to San Diego bro," but I'm sorry i just can't do that. But I will try as hard as I can to convince the big boss to expand and build a nice office out there, and selflessly volunteer to help him set things up in sunny Cali. :)
Saturday, January 22, 2011
Strange Thing Just Happened
Sometimes we have moments that creep up unexpectedly. Something seemingly small will have such a profound effect on us we have to kinda take a step back and breathe. This just happened to me, and it was both strange and enlightening at the same time.
9/11 was obviously a terrible thing. Such a devestating occurrence caused the whole country to become upset and really feel for the loss we suffered. I don't know what it was, but I never really felt personally affected by it. I understood the gravity of the situation, and I realized how significant the loss was, but it never brought me to tears or really any strong emotions. I felt sad about it but not the strong sadness that many felt. I've heard numerous stories about tragic losses and a person's whole family being lost, but it took til today to truly feel it.
I was watching Celebrity Rehab, of all shows, and there was a story of one of the patients having lost her boyfriend (fiance?) during 9/11. Dr. Drew felt she had to take her there to really understand the loss and start dealing with and recovering from her grief. While they were standing at ground zero and she was saying how she felt alone and no one could understand, a guy stepped in and explained how he also lost his wife and niece, and he told a very personal story about that morning.
Again, I have heard similar stories, but it was just one of those times where something was happening that made me truly feel a deep deep sadness for his story, and suddenly the world just didn't really seem right. As I said, it was both sad and enlightening, and I am grateful to have experienced it.
9/11 was obviously a terrible thing. Such a devestating occurrence caused the whole country to become upset and really feel for the loss we suffered. I don't know what it was, but I never really felt personally affected by it. I understood the gravity of the situation, and I realized how significant the loss was, but it never brought me to tears or really any strong emotions. I felt sad about it but not the strong sadness that many felt. I've heard numerous stories about tragic losses and a person's whole family being lost, but it took til today to truly feel it.
I was watching Celebrity Rehab, of all shows, and there was a story of one of the patients having lost her boyfriend (fiance?) during 9/11. Dr. Drew felt she had to take her there to really understand the loss and start dealing with and recovering from her grief. While they were standing at ground zero and she was saying how she felt alone and no one could understand, a guy stepped in and explained how he also lost his wife and niece, and he told a very personal story about that morning.
Again, I have heard similar stories, but it was just one of those times where something was happening that made me truly feel a deep deep sadness for his story, and suddenly the world just didn't really seem right. As I said, it was both sad and enlightening, and I am grateful to have experienced it.
Monday, January 10, 2011
2011 Goals
Yeah I guess I may as well do one of these cliche New Years Resolution deals. I got a few goals that I'm hoping to work on in the coming year, some past goals that I'm halfway through or have ignored completely, and some new ones.
The first goal has been on my mind for a long time. This year, I vow that I will write a song. I have a few ideas and random parts of songs floatin around in my head, and this year I am going to pull together at least one. I think this will go a long way in just bettering myself as a person, as it's something that I am very passionate about and feel like I can do if I just put my mind to it and put in the effort. When I finish it, I'll try and see if I can somehow upload it and share it with everyone.
I'd love to have another music related goal pertaining to playing the piano, but I can't really think of a specific thing to achieve. I just want to be good. I'm really pumped that I can now play 'Tom Traubert's Blues' by Tom Waits, so I'm hoping that trend will continue and I will keep learning.
For poker, I am hoping to be at the $2-$4 level in my challenge. I originally thought I could finish in a year, but to be honest I am playing terribly so far, so i have to step up a little and get back to my winning ways. I think I am now in the correct mindset to do this, so I expect to only go up from here.
This will most likely be a 2012 goal, but I would like to start studies for my MBA at some point soon. I will probably go to UMass Lowell, so I need 2 years of work experience. I think it's good anyway to get a good idea of exactly what I still need to learn.
I think that's probably all. I guess that'll be enough for one year lol. I'm confident that I'll be able to make some good progress, and the song will happen!
The first goal has been on my mind for a long time. This year, I vow that I will write a song. I have a few ideas and random parts of songs floatin around in my head, and this year I am going to pull together at least one. I think this will go a long way in just bettering myself as a person, as it's something that I am very passionate about and feel like I can do if I just put my mind to it and put in the effort. When I finish it, I'll try and see if I can somehow upload it and share it with everyone.
I'd love to have another music related goal pertaining to playing the piano, but I can't really think of a specific thing to achieve. I just want to be good. I'm really pumped that I can now play 'Tom Traubert's Blues' by Tom Waits, so I'm hoping that trend will continue and I will keep learning.
For poker, I am hoping to be at the $2-$4 level in my challenge. I originally thought I could finish in a year, but to be honest I am playing terribly so far, so i have to step up a little and get back to my winning ways. I think I am now in the correct mindset to do this, so I expect to only go up from here.
This will most likely be a 2012 goal, but I would like to start studies for my MBA at some point soon. I will probably go to UMass Lowell, so I need 2 years of work experience. I think it's good anyway to get a good idea of exactly what I still need to learn.
I think that's probably all. I guess that'll be enough for one year lol. I'm confident that I'll be able to make some good progress, and the song will happen!
Sunday, December 26, 2010
All Kinds of Stuff in This Blog
I'm writing this blog all cozy in my apartment while a blizzard, or as we obnoxiously call it, a 'NorEaster,' is happening right outside the window. It's gonna be nice not to have to get up and shovel in the morning, but I really hope we don't lose electricity. I'm here all by myself so it would prolly suck. Speaking of all by myself, I'll be here alone for over a week when Sarah and Nicole go to Hawaii! It's gonna get boring I think.
I am currently in the championship in my fantasy football league. It's my first time doing it, paired with my father, so it's pretty cool to be close to taking all the marbles right off the bat. My team admittedly isn't doing too great right now, but he's got two running backs out, one that was injured in the first quarter with -2 points and he failed to check if maurice jones-drew was playing, which he isn't. So if I lose to a guy with two players out, I'll be pretty pissed. I'm looking forward to having my own team next year, as I was constantly checking the website this year for any new developments.
After just 2 weeks in the cash game challenge, I'm moving up!!!! It's on to $.02-.05. I just won an $8 pot with pocket Aces, which is huuuuge at the lowest stakes, That helped me over the cusp to just over $28. I'm playing really well and finally getting back into my usual style of play that made me so successful before. Having a lot of fun doing it as well.
The job is going great. I'm learning a ton of stuff related to acocunting and enjoying every minute of the relaxed work environment. I'm very excited to be part of this company and have great feelings about it's future success.
I think that's about it for now. Maybe this is starting a new trend of blogging more than once every 3 months! ;) Stay warm out there New England.
I am currently in the championship in my fantasy football league. It's my first time doing it, paired with my father, so it's pretty cool to be close to taking all the marbles right off the bat. My team admittedly isn't doing too great right now, but he's got two running backs out, one that was injured in the first quarter with -2 points and he failed to check if maurice jones-drew was playing, which he isn't. So if I lose to a guy with two players out, I'll be pretty pissed. I'm looking forward to having my own team next year, as I was constantly checking the website this year for any new developments.
After just 2 weeks in the cash game challenge, I'm moving up!!!! It's on to $.02-.05. I just won an $8 pot with pocket Aces, which is huuuuge at the lowest stakes, That helped me over the cusp to just over $28. I'm playing really well and finally getting back into my usual style of play that made me so successful before. Having a lot of fun doing it as well.
The job is going great. I'm learning a ton of stuff related to acocunting and enjoying every minute of the relaxed work environment. I'm very excited to be part of this company and have great feelings about it's future success.
I think that's about it for now. Maybe this is starting a new trend of blogging more than once every 3 months! ;) Stay warm out there New England.
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